目前分類:鍾溫蒂的感情世界 (7)
- Jan 28 Sun 2007 20:36
To join or not to join? (W)
- Oct 18 Wed 2006 16:05
聽妹妹的話 (W)
- Sep 20 Wed 2006 18:24
千里之外 (W)
星期六晚上,我終於跟他見到面了。
到達捷運站時,一時沒看到他,還差點找錯人,後來才發現他站在角落等我,跟記憶中一樣帥氣,只是戴了眼鏡換了髮型,熟悉中帶著陌生。
一如往常般,他給了我個見面的擁抱。我從星期四接到他email說回到台北但是聯絡電話都不見了,回給他手機號碼等到昨晚他打來祝我生日快樂並約好隔天見面後,懸掛在半空的心跟恍惚許久的精神終於定了下來。光是這幾天的等待與期盼,就讓我抽掉了一整個禮拜份的菸。
我在計程車上其實隱隱帶些緊張,畢竟上次見面已經是三年多前,但是十年的交情,兩人一開口就恢復原本的自然與自在。到了咖啡廳,點完東西後我劈頭罵他,這幾年幹嘛搞神秘搞失蹤。原來他這幾年再日本不是很意氣風發,所以不想面對老友的關心詢問,才選擇躲避。聽說他其實每年都有回台灣,我狠狠瞪他一眼。
他問說:老公呢?天啊,居然沒看到我之前寫的信?害我還要尷尬的再解釋一次當時的temporary insanity。你呢?...我剛交一個新的女朋友。強忍住心中閃過的失落,強顏歡笑的祝福他。兩人互相交代過這幾年的近況後,我決定今天一定要把藏在心中多年的話一次講清楚。
- Aug 05 Sat 2006 15:39
每個人心中都有一座斷背山 (W)
在我中部落格作家毒癮之前,我一直不能理解為什麼有那麼多人喜歡把自己內心最私密的事情公佈在網路上供世人拜讀,而每每當我在看別人部落格或網路相簿時,也常常有種窺視的感覺。我偷偷把這歸類為現代人的暴露狂與偷窺狂心態。
- Aug 02 Wed 2006 09:18
庸人自擾 (W)
- Jul 31 Mon 2006 23:54
Memories & Confessions (W)
Wendy's response to R (in her head):
I agree, that's a totally lame excuse, it ranks up there with "I love you so I have to leave you" as the world's lamest excuses, and you have been an absolutely rotten friend. Aside from my private feelings for you, I've always considered you a good friend. Has it never occurred to you that I won't be worried that you're dead or hurt when there's been no news from you for months or even a year at a time? I could sense that you wanted to keep your space, for whatever fucking reason, so I tried to respect that and only dropped a line or two every half year or so, just to reassure myself that you are still in this world. I mean, even if you were married with 3 kids, I'd have liked to know and been able to give you my congratulations.
When I got your latest message, I was just thinking about how I should compose my reply to you. I have to admit, I was more happy than I should be (but I'm not in my right mind lately and have been behaving totally out of character). One of the things I liked best about you was your absolute honesty and total open-mindedness. Since we are now in a sentimental and sharing mood, let's make a deal: I'll forgive you if you'll do the same for me. I meant every word I wrote in my last message, and even though the feelings have faded with time, you will always have a very special place in my heart (more then you deserve!).
Ok, this is very painful for me but I want to be honest so don't kill me! I was pissed that you didn't answer my first message, so (here I plead temporary insanity or alien brainwashing and/or mad-cow disease...) I did what I knew would get a response from you... Anyway, it was totally embarassing and I didn't know how to take my words back... I honestly thought "OK this is the end of it" so what the hell, since I was too mortified to ever face you again, I might as well go ahead and tell you what I always lacked the courage to say. I really didn't expect to hear back from you, and I was so embarassed I couldn't make myself read what you wrote. >__
Anyway, after all the nice things I said about you, would you consider not killing me???
- Jul 31 Mon 2006 16:44
[兒童不宜] I'm a FUCKING idiot! (W)
God, I can't believe what's fucking wrong with me! (Will I be censored on Wretch for using the F-word? Don't really fucking care right now…)
Perhaps it's the strain of the fucking Chinese Valentine's Day (CVD) plus many other cumulative reasons, I did the MOST FUCKING STUPID THING EVER last weekend. Here's the thing: there's this guy who's like my personal Mr. Big. Even though it's been over 3 years since we last met, I still think about him from time to time. We barely keep in touch now, but I still drop him a line every half-year to check whether he's still alive (and also whether he's married with kids already… Sick, I know…)