Wendy's response to R (in her head):
I agree, that's a totally lame excuse, it ranks up there with "I love you so I have to leave you" as the world's lamest excuses, and you have been an absolutely rotten friend. Aside from my private feelings for you, I've always considered you a good friend. Has it never occurred to you that I won't be worried that you're dead or hurt when there's been no news from you for months or even a year at a time? I could sense that you wanted to keep your space, for whatever fucking reason, so I tried to respect that and only dropped a line or two every half year or so, just to reassure myself that you are still in this world. I mean, even if you were married with 3 kids, I'd have liked to know and been able to give you my congratulations.
When I got your latest message, I was just thinking about how I should compose my reply to you. I have to admit, I was more happy than I should be (but I'm not in my right mind lately and have been behaving totally out of character). One of the things I liked best about you was your absolute honesty and total open-mindedness. Since we are now in a sentimental and sharing mood, let's make a deal: I'll forgive you if you'll do the same for me. I meant every word I wrote in my last message, and even though the feelings have faded with time, you will always have a very special place in my heart (more then you deserve!).
Ok, this is very painful for me but I want to be honest so don't kill me! I was pissed that you didn't answer my first message, so (here I plead temporary insanity or alien brainwashing and/or mad-cow disease...) I did what I knew would get a response from you... Anyway, it was totally embarassing and I didn't know how to take my words back... I honestly thought "OK this is the end of it" so what the hell, since I was too mortified to ever face you again, I might as well go ahead and tell you what I always lacked the courage to say. I really didn't expect to hear back from you, and I was so embarassed I couldn't make myself read what you wrote. >__< GOD, talk about the most mortifying and agonizing days of my life!!!
Anyway, after all the nice things I said about you, would you consider not killing me???
I agree, that's a totally lame excuse, it ranks up there with "I love you so I have to leave you" as the world's lamest excuses, and you have been an absolutely rotten friend. Aside from my private feelings for you, I've always considered you a good friend. Has it never occurred to you that I won't be worried that you're dead or hurt when there's been no news from you for months or even a year at a time? I could sense that you wanted to keep your space, for whatever fucking reason, so I tried to respect that and only dropped a line or two every half year or so, just to reassure myself that you are still in this world. I mean, even if you were married with 3 kids, I'd have liked to know and been able to give you my congratulations.
When I got your latest message, I was just thinking about how I should compose my reply to you. I have to admit, I was more happy than I should be (but I'm not in my right mind lately and have been behaving totally out of character). One of the things I liked best about you was your absolute honesty and total open-mindedness. Since we are now in a sentimental and sharing mood, let's make a deal: I'll forgive you if you'll do the same for me. I meant every word I wrote in my last message, and even though the feelings have faded with time, you will always have a very special place in my heart (more then you deserve!).
Ok, this is very painful for me but I want to be honest so don't kill me! I was pissed that you didn't answer my first message, so (here I plead temporary insanity or alien brainwashing and/or mad-cow disease...) I did what I knew would get a response from you... Anyway, it was totally embarassing and I didn't know how to take my words back... I honestly thought "OK this is the end of it" so what the hell, since I was too mortified to ever face you again, I might as well go ahead and tell you what I always lacked the courage to say. I really didn't expect to hear back from you, and I was so embarassed I couldn't make myself read what you wrote. >__< GOD, talk about the most mortifying and agonizing days of my life!!!
Anyway, after all the nice things I said about you, would you consider not killing me???
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